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Making Hay -
Updates to this blog can be few and far between, the cause, boringly, being work. Being self-
It seems weird to complain of too much work (which obviously brings in cash) when so many others are struggling, but looked at another way, eating too much food is still a problem even when half the world is hungry. It will still make you obese and ruin your health, and won't solve anyone else's hunger. So it's time for change. Deep breath, give up hard-
My new workload gives me a three-
It looks like a fairly minor change from the outside, but it involves a major change of mindset and habits of a lifetime from the inside. When I wake up in a cold sweat at 5 a.m. because I have no work in for the following day, I have to remind myself that I've done the sums over and over and it's fine and, in any case, if it isn't fine and we have to move house, we won't die! If I have to go back to spending 60 hours a week in front of a computer screen though, that might actually kill me.
I'm aware this is a problem that I'm not going to get much sympathy with! It's the ultimate middle class/first world problem. But coming from a background of poverty, seeing what poverty in old age is like, and with the decreasing level of social support from this ruthless government, it's hard to overcome the insecurity and go against a lifetime of conditioning of what we are supposed to want. How much is enough is the question, something I think rich people never learn, judging by the number of A list celebrities selling their souls for advertising (Johnny Depp doing perfume ads -
So I'm breaking the cycle and going gardening and cooking, and maybe these blogs and Twitter updates will become more regular. I know, no one reading this is feeling sorry for me!